It has been a long, tough and tedious journey of 23 weeks.
This pregnancy is the worst of the 3. Each pregnancy has more and more problems. I guess my body is weak. Just wondering how people can have 10 pregnancies.
Carrying Reina is the best. Smooth sailing all the way to week 40. Even when delivering her doesnt give me much effort.
Then comes to Caden, I have spotting on and off for the 1st trimester. Then week 33, Caden move his head up and I have to end up C section.
and lastly, this little boy of mine, I have bleeding early in my pregnancy and spot all the way to week 14. Then week 19, suddenly having heavy bleeding and ended up in 6 days hospitalisation. Dr Ong give me 60 days Hospitalisation Leave till end of Sept. Although there is no bleeding now, but I can still feel the contraction sometimes. Very often, I am having cramps. It actually worry me becuase I dont want go into labour so early in my pregnancy. Baby is not safe if I deliver him now. I hope that I can drag till at else my week 35. At else I know I am really in my safe zone. But that will be another 12 weeks from now. 12 weeks seems to be so long... how to endure????
I wish I can try VBAC this time. I will be disappointed if I cant have one. Dr Ong told me that this really depends on situation. He can only discuss with me towards the end of my pregnancy. I started to read on articles of VBAC recently since I am at home. Now I know what "situation" that Dr Ong means. In order to have VBAC, baby must be all ready for delivery, he cannot be more than 3kg and definitely no induction. Else there is a chance of uterus rupture. Delivery must start off naturally which means contraction must start off by itself. I read from somewhere that if the waterbag burst without triggering any contraction, then u will need go directly to OT.
I have a feeling that it is another section again. Because I feel that he will not turn down like his gor gor. All along he has been stepping on me. And plus the above, I think is not easy.. need tian shi, di li, ren he... So to have VBAC sound to be a gone case for me. Moverover, I hope to deliver him around mid of November, becuase I want to go to the wedding of my close cousin.
However, there will be an advantage for another cesearian again. Because Dr Ong told me that I can get rid of my irritating keloids from my 1st pregnancy. Well, this stupid keloids is getting bigger and bigger and is so itchy. From my 2nd cesear, he can remove my keloids and flatten it.
But I hate to go through the pain again. I still can remember the nightmare of my 1st 5 days in hospital after my C section. But I can forget about the labour pain when delivering Reina after my confinement. You can see how much I am tramatized by the operation. hahaha...
Whatever it is, I will be happy to accept it as long as I can carry my little boy to week 35.
I have super cramps yesterday that freak me out. I try to rest on bed as much as possible yesterday but it doesnt seems to go off. Imagine, even I am waken up by the cramps during my afternoon nap. It went off in the evening but come back again at night. so irritating. I hope that that is not contraction. Wondering if my gynae got a super pill for me to stop all these cramps. Now I am taking ventolin 3 times a day. It will be another 6 weeks till I go back to work. By then, I will be in my week 30. Hopefully by then, everything will settle down.
I feel sorry for my children because I am unable to bring them go kai kai. They must be dead boring at home. Then my dear husband knocked my head saying that there will be plenty of time after my delivery. hahaha..... But then, how to manage to bring 3 little kids out with only 4 hands??
Lets dun think too much. Now, I just hope i can get rid of my cramps and contraction. 12 weeks to my safe zone.. Jia you!